Other than my children, my greatest interest in life--is Life, the Universe, and Everything. I WANT TO KNOW. I have read, studied, lived, meditated, asked, prayed -- though I still have trouble with the Christian concept of prayer -- and been rewarded with the Answer -- not once, but twice. The first answer was, "Yes, but you're paying attention to the wrong thing. The thing is to Love." The second was, "I'm telling you, you are alive to be the best you that you can be, and do nothing in half-measure."

For some reason, I am intuitive beyond (most of my life) my ability to deal with the inflow of information I have received. I only very recently am beginning to slow down and not be so reluctant to allow the Universe, or the Holy Spirit, or any one of the hundreds of other names this most particular Lover of us is captured in, to talk to me about things that matter--Life, here, now. The Universe and Everything will need to wait, to a degree. Too much time out there makes a lot of us look nuts. But if you care and know what I'm talking about, you will understand when I say that people who get hung up on physical-body sensations have never felt anything particularly special.

At times these people seem so *omniverous* with regards: *Feeding their bodies with extreme physical sensation*, that I feel unsafe near them. I wonder whom or what they would *consume*. It feels ICKY to me. I think I could easily be no more than a thing, to be used for their gratification, with little or no consideration for who I am--the personal uniqueness of *me*. I believe that they don't understand that you and I are *real people* -- possibly becaues they don't feel real, themselves unless they are overdosing on physical sensation. (Enough of THAT fun.)

I have been computer literate for 13 years or so. However, other than emailing my children and playing solitaire, computers held no great fascination for me until recently. I prefer Life---etc. I am becoming much more Web-literate. I even enjoy the Web now!

My initial, somewhat terrified, reaction to the Web was literally: "How much Love do you think is really out here? Though I will gracefully admit there is a lot of 'doing nothing in half measure.'"

My fear of the Web has all but vanished, due to my increasing ability to find sites that do not pose a threat to my personal sense of morality--morality, in the sexual sense, but many others, too. Due to early childhood situations I seem to live with an unpleasantly exaggarated sense of foreboding surrounding many aspects of *being taken advantage of*. Weren't you just waiting to learn that?

There are other things that define me, in a way. I write fairly good poetry--have done a few readings of my poetry, been published in two college anthologies, and last year I won a third place ribbon for one of my poems in the local Fair. I am published on the internet, primarily, at a site called, "Seizure", an art site for individuals with epilepsy. You will find a link to that site on my poetry page. I also do photography, and won a blue ribbon for a photo at the same Fair. I enjoy gardening very much and (surprise!) won two red ribbons for tomatoes at the Fair in Napa when I lived there. Right now my husband and I are trying to find a house or duplex with room for a garden.

I also make collages, to keep--but mostly to give away. I find that most people appreciate them much more than a stock greeting card. I began to really enjoy creating my part of this site when I realized that I was basically making a more complicated collage!--a MUCH more complicated collage.

I read the Tarot, although rarely. I find it difficult to complete readings which appear discouraging. Years ago, I had to stop reading completely for quite a while because I actually lied rather than tell clients important information which I felt would disturb them. I was young and very foolish. I feel very fortunate that my ability to read was not permanently effected.

I am a serioius Trekker, also adore "Northern Exposure", and "Babylon 5." The books I have read recently that totally absorbed me are mostly written by Anne Rice. My favorite movies are Out of Africa, Lawrence of Arabia, RainMan, almost anything with Robin Williams, but particularly, Dead Poets Society and Birdcage. Also, Children of a Lesser God--how could I have almost forgotten that one. But movies are not really a great interest.

Somewhere in here I have to get in my intense relationship with cats. They find me--particularly when they are seriously injured or starving. We mesh well. They talk to me. PEACE!










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